Symptoms of a pinched nerve and numbness in right hand and arm.

by Melodie
(Dallas/Fort Worth, TX)

I was once very active in the church and ministry and believed in healings, taught bible studies about it and prayed for a number of people and saw healing first hand. Then my sister, that was two years younger than me, was diagnosed with a terminal illness. I prayed, believed, fasted and ministered over the course of her illness and only saw her decline. My urgent prayers seemed to fall on deaf ears and when she died, I was so angry, hurt and numb that I could barely function. How can I tell others about a healing God, when I had suffered such a loss?

Last year, I felt God knocking on the door to my heart again and I opened it wide. All of my pain and anger melted away in an instant and my knees hit the ground as I asked the Lord to reside in me again and to forgive me for my anger toward Him.

A few months later, I learned that my mother-in-law was dying of pancreatic cancer. I prayed, read, studied, fasted, and believed again and informed the family that God could and I believed certainly would heal her. They acted like I was "a little off" but began to hope that I was right in spite of the situation and sadly, we buried her last August.

Again I was immensely hurt and confused. What had I done wrong? Then I thought that if my child were crying for my help and I could help him, but chose not to because maybe he didn't ask correctly....well, I just can't fathom that. I can't believe that God, my heavenly Father, that gave His Son for me, would show less concern for me than my earthly father did.

My faith is weakened and my heart is fragile and now it is I seeking prayer for myself. I am struggling since a recent emergency surgery and blood transfusions with high blood pressure and I have what I hope is merely a pinched nerve causing severe numbness in my right hand radiating up my arm.

I come humbly and ask for prayer. I've prayed over it myself, and it seems my prayers aren't even hitting the ceiling. I'm not trying to sound so weak and faithless, nor am I wanting to hinder the faith of others. I am simply being as open as I can as I'm sure my issues are just as much spiritual as physical. Thank you in advance for your prayers. May God be gracious to you.