John Philip Moore I need Prayer

by John Moore
(St helens,Merseyside, Uniited Kinjgdom)

I came to know Jesus as my Saviour and Lord in 1983, The Lord delivered me from depression. I began to serve the Lord and felt the annointing of God on my life. I felt Gods presence in my life and I yearned for him more each day.
A couple of things happened that were the start of me backsliding.
In 1987 I met a woman in the Pentecostal Church that I attended and in 1988 we approached the Pastor about getting married. The Pastor didn't want to marry us because she had been divorced. She qouted that She was a new creation in Christ Jesus and therefore it was her right to be married. The Pastor married us, but alot of the congregation who were close to me tried to warn me it wasn't of God. The marriage went ahead, but it became apparent that she didn't really know Jesus in a personal way and started to become hostile when I spoke of the Lord or watched Christian videos. She then had an affair with one of my neighbours whom I used to go jogging with.
At the same time a Christian brother told me God had told him that we should have a buisness together. I believed what he said and instead of seeking God went into buisness with him. The work involved going up ladders and I fell off them three times, resulting in spinal damage.
When my marriage ended I left Church, because of the embarassment.
I met a non Christian and we were together for 11 years. Throughout this time I felt like Jonah running away from God.
In January this year I decided that I could no longer be yoked to an unbeliever and returned to God. It feels like the Holy Spirit is really dealing with me. However, I feel heart broken, am tearful most of the time and anxious. I also suffer from spinal problems and am under the care of a Neurologist. I have a good job, but am currently off work sick.
I love the Lord with all my heart, but feel that at times when I am getting close to a break through I feel overwhwlmed with hopelessness.
I came across your site after listening to Videos of Jack Coe preaching in the 1950's on you tube.